Am I content?

The Lord has been really pressing on my heart lately to be content. I really viewed myself as content in about everything, but was I really? Honestly, looking at myself right now I see my heart and it yearns for something indescribable yet something so temporary. I am continually being drawn to my own emotions and not the will of God. The Lord has been laying on my heart Proverbs 4:23 "Keep your heart with all diligence for out of it spring the issues of life." The issues of life? It's not just little things, but outcomes. If I do not keep my heart in line with God's word then I could affect not just myself, but the lives of those around me, whether family, friends, future spouse, future children and grandchildren. How devastating could the decision I make today be tomorrow or in the years to come? This is such a great burden. Am I content to satisfy the temporary without regards to the long-term affect? The Lord knows my heart and sees my desires even when I feel like they are not seen. There are days when I feel extremely torn between what my soul desires and what my flesh desires. They don't line up and I want my fleshly desires fulfilled. Yet the Lord reminds me of what my soul longs for and that when I delight myself in Him, He will give me the desires of my heart. I am learning what Colossians 3:2 means. "Set your minds on the things that are above, not on things that are on earth."